Lost…

My thoughts are never going to leave me I guess…

I know it’s been quite late since I’ve posted anything or have written about any topic, mostly because this quarantine have made me meet myself 🌸

Nice to meet me.

Also, nowadays it is like, I’m lost but don’t know where.

Does it happen that you feel that you have lost a part of yourself, a part that you loved, a part that gave you confidence and it defined who you were?

No.. No, Nonono…i haven’t started doubting myself. Or being afraid of failing, of taking risks, or of being sure.

It is just that, My lockdown days have been a roller coaster of emotions for me.

I think my lockdown days have gone in a circle. You know, there is this song “Kho Gaye Hum Kahan” and I can so much relate to each inch of this song being initially, very bored, feeling like a prisoner(lol) being so restless and stressed, angry, cranky and
annoyed.

Would just quickly wrap this blog up by saying that if you are able to read this blog of mine, and
are surrounded with food, a roof above your head and a family that loves you, you are more
lucky than half of the world today!

Count your blessings, stay safe, try not to panic and stress out.

Reach out for help if you need any because it is completely okay not to feel like yourself sometimes🌈

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All the above images are inspired from Pexels!

What it takes to be a “Good Person”🦄🌸☺

I’m sure every single one reading to this blog would relate to this in some or other way…, all of us want to become a better person, but some of us don’t know how.

Every single day before going to bed I sit their and try to reflect and see if I’ve done anything bad or hurt someone or see what can I do to become better.

Not only that, but I have a goal of leaving an imprint on the world for doing great things. By setting aside some time each day to reflect on what behaviors were good and bad, I have the opportunity to grow.

Just to be honest,
Me myself, I struggle each day to improve myself and to get better in every way I can. It is not easy, but trust me it is the most beautiful🌸 thing. Like they say…

“There is never an excuse for not being a good person”

So, how to be a better person?

Here are a few ways to become a better person through self-development:

  1. To willing to change
    In order to become a better person, you have to be willing to change.

Change is the only way you can help grow and progress into the person you want to be. Most of them are strictly against changing, which can make it hard to grow!

When you keep an open mind and are willing to change, you are able to grow into the person you want to become.

  1. Fling your anger
    Most of us ruin those innumerable subjects of life by letting anger and rage alter the decision-making skills. TBH, I am a very angry person, and it is very difficult to control the anger especially at the times when someone gets into your skin.

But anger only destroyes and effects my mental health with an increase of my blood pressure.

Controlling anger is an extreme difficult task to master, but trust me it’s is very beneficial and makes you the most beautiful person.

Find some way of relaxing your nerves when you’re angry, I just remember my lord and try to calm myself and it always works for me.

  1. Forgive
    Forgiving someone who’ve hurt you is very difficult. Whenever I get upset on someone I simply ignore them and maintain distance.

That is the simplest you can also do, as wishing them bad or using curse language or being bitter on them for the rest of your lives will make it more difficult on yourself and would cause you mental illness.

Forgive the person who’ve hurt you or did wrong to you and move on quietly🌻

  1. Listen to people
    Okay, so here all I have got to say is…People are extremely busy with their careers, families, and lives. Everyone is in a rush, but people rarely ever have time to listen to what others have to say.

I have always learnt it from my dad that listening to people and giving everyone a voice is one of the greatest things you can ever do.

  1. Being a good friend
    You might be a terrible friend and not even realize it. That should scare you. Really, it should!

Sometimes our actions and the words that escape our mouths stop going through a filter. Then eventually we’re not even conscious of how horrible we are as a person/friend/lover/whatever.

There’s no universal method to being caring without being too pushy. Instead, you’ve got to figure out what works best and adjust as needed.

Good friends know how to pick up right where they left off no matter how long it’s been since they last saw each other.

I hope this helped you and if you feel it’ll help some of your close ones then do share this article with them and let them know that you do care for them💞☺🌼

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All the above images are inspired from Pexels💞

Memories💫💙

“A moment lasts all of a second, but the memory lives on forever.”
~Unknown

Like snakes shed their skins periodically, I have come to think we shed a bit of ourselves too. But unlike snakes, we don’t completely walk away from the skin we shed.

We leave a bit of ourselves behind, with everyone we meet, and everywhere we go — also carrying back with us bits of others in the shape of memories as we walk away.

Memories don’t, they never fade away completely. Yes, we keep pushing them away consciously as we try to move on from any kind of toxic relationships or toxicity – as one should!

“Toast to the ones here today
Toast to the ones that we lost on the way
‘Cause the drinks bring back all the memories
And the memories bring back, memories bring back you”
~ Memories – Maroon 5 (song)

But.. Memories never die. Those bits and pieces of our memories remain suspended where we are!

I used to be afraid of memories. Of losing the good ones. I used to think that perhaps there was a limit to how many times we could remember something and once we had exhausted that number, they would be no more.

So many people we love or hate, so many we interact with in various positive and negative ways.

In the end,
Those happy memories are what gives you hope to live on and keep going, And those happy memories you make will be with you forever and ever, and when life gets tough in the hereafter it will be those miniature tiny beaming, gleeful memories that pop back into your mind and help you smile and get through those crazy rugged times.

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All the above picture credits – pixels💞

Ever heard of long distance “Friendships”?

Long distance friendship are those that can get stronger from the miles that they apart, where there is anything that can prevent you from being friends.

Friendships on their own can sometimes feel difficult to manage let alone maintaining them when there’s distance. Ever since I moved to an other city aftey eleventh grade, I’ve seen many of my friendships either grow stronger or slowly fade away.

Whether it’s as simple as graduating high school or deciding to teach English across the world, I’ve been through it all.
Here are some of my own experiences in maintaining long distance friendships…☁🌼

A tiny sneak peek to my own long distance friendship🐾🐣

Before I move on to the fun stuff, I want to quickly address a harsh reality. If I’m being completely honest, it’s likely that you won’t be able to stay in touch with everyone that you’d like to, in the way that you may like to.
BUT let me also say that this is a harsh reality likely to happen no matter where you live.

What I’ve seen from my own personal experience is that some long-distance friendships take more effort and some seem almost effortless. Some friends you’ll talk to every day, and some you hardly to talk at all, but still find it easy to stay close.
I can’t give you an exact formula here. It will really depend on the specific friend and the situation.

Before I go into this even more deeper, you should know, I’m pretty awful at keeping friendships in general.

Most either end in an intentional drifting apart or on pretty rotten terms depending on how dramatic things get. I never want to feel like I’m more invested in a relationship than the other person, so if I start to get that sense, I started putting in some distance.

As I’ve gotten older I’ve tried to communicate better, but sometimes it’s not worth the effort or my attempts don’t seem to have any impact.

My one and my only BFF🌸

With her things seem so effortless, she understands me like no other friend, she have been through all the phases of my life..thick and thin.

She knows all my secrets, she have seen all my weaknesses and have stood there for me… She knows how to handle all my aggravate and all my sum of anger is well treated by her…💞

I met her in my preschool, while we were in the same class and she had joined newly, she was a very shy and quite person….i remember no one actually tried talking to her and during the break I walked to her and introduced myself..she was yet sheepish and wasn’t able to open up candidly, haha.

It’s almost 10 years of our friendship now, and let me tell you, these years were not at all very pleasing and alluring, hahhaha, both of us have been into fights “Cue eye roll” , and went days and weeks not talking or even not looking at each other.

Once her dad had to get involved in elucidating on our disagreements , haha, as it was our birthday the next day and both of us weren’t bending or compromising on the things that were erroneous. (for the people wondering, yess our birth dates fall on the same day💜)

Our communication is by no means perfect, and it’s taken me a little while to accept that we communicate differently, but the same level of care is still there.

Despite of all these reasons, She stood by my side, have made me happy, made me laugh until tears have rolled down my cheeks, haha, those birthday texts. Instagram throwbacks. Little care packages or gifts. Or just anything that fits our friendship. She have always been protective towards me and this bond🍒

I can just indisputably scrawl down pages and pages defining her and our pure and sparkling bond. But I may make a part II for itemizing the bond of ours, as that amusement might not fit into a few paragraphs. Haha.

Just like “they” say, a little effort really does go a long way. And when it comes to being a good friend, I’ve found this statement to be more than true. All you have to do- make sure your friends know that even though you’re not physically there with them, you’ll still always be there for them.

App’s do it for you!

Well, there’s really no denying it- we live in a world completely consumed by technology. Luckily, when it comes to long-distance friendships technology is here to make things easier! With smartphones and laptops, it’s easier than ever to stay in touch with friends while living abroad.

Using apps to stay in touch with friends may seem like a “DUH!,” but the truth is, your apps won’t actually do the work for you. You have to use them right!

And yea… That’s about it.. Shout out to my little dwarf🧙‍♀I miss you and wish to catch up soon…love ya💜

Long distance friendship has its own importance🌸💜

Thoughts…💭🤧

I am never going to live that normal life ever again now.. Aahhh…I’m never gonna forgive that dinosaur for munching out on my leg.

Ohh.. Dream!

Wait… Did I set my alarm for this early.. Pretty sure that it was a mistake!

I can skip showering for a day right??

Aahhh… I forgot to make a plait out of my hair last night agaaaiinn, it’s all tangled, twisted together untidily.

I will just rope it up in a bun now… Aagghhh, where is my hair tie now..Not again… I lost the last one, can I use a clutch instead?!

I don’t like my toothpaste… Why do you need to brush your teeth every day… (it’s weird right? Wait. What?)

Did I turn the fan in my room off? Must turn it off before mumma wakes up and turns it off. I wake up before my mother. How adult am I.

Should I wait my mom to wake up and give me my breakfast… Or should I just grill some cheese toasts with scrambled eggs( only thing I’m great making at)

Pimple.

Any new mails?

What song is this…

Should I drink coffee or protein shake today.

Milk must be boiling.

I don’t even know why I buy clothes when I know I am going to wear the same black pant and black top everyday.

How’s the weather today? God, it’s sunny.

Umm.. Shave or shave not?
You know….what they say about body hair. It grows back. Genius.

Ohh shit… It’s my not so favorite cousin’s birthday today… Need to call him…aahhh!

Ponytail or open hair? Naahhh.. Just a messy bun!

Was there any movie going to release today?
What page was I on? Where is my bookmark. I am pretty sure I used a bookmark. Page 294. Damn it. That was from last two weeks.

Can I just wear pyjama and an extra size hoodie today?

Aahhh… Hairfall are a real thing.
Ouu. Tingles.Haha

Not again!! What’s the battery percentage of my phone? Ugghhh, forgot to turn on the charger last night again. Good job!!

Aarrggh, my toe, everyday!

Where is my second earing, can’t find it. Can I just not wear any earings ever?

Shit. Forgot my headphone
Old age is approaching

Shut up.

Don’t forget to call that cousin you don’t like. Its her birthday. Please!

Can I just fly?

How do I constantly have a back ache?

Sweat is basically your armpits crying tears of suffocation and heat.

My lips are chapped. A matte crayon or just a lip balm?

Forgot to wear my finger rings. They are my favorites.

I hope something surprising happens today. Like I get chocolates. Or a gift. Or something free.

Call cousin! Don’t forget! Birthday!

Did I forget my lunch Mumma packed for me! Shit! Ohh no wait… I’m holding it right now.

What is this itch on my wrist? Did something bite me again? Or is it an internal infection.

Must google.

Baby, baby, ohhhh . Baby…Baby.. Ouuuuu

Where the heck did I keep my lip balm?

This back ache is annoying. Back a..c…h…e..

Baby..babyyy ooohhhhh ooo.. O.. Baby, Baby

Did I wash my hair yesterday? Or the day before?

As long as it doesn’t stink, I guess.

What’s that smell??

Baby.. Baby ooo o oo , baby, babyy

WHY IS THIS SONG STUCK IN MY HEAD!

Wish Cousin you don’t like! Call. Call. Call.

Maybe I’ll just text!

I need a massage!

I’ve spent more than an hour on Instagram today? its not like that’s bad, right?

More books. Less screen.

Shit, I left my lunchbox on my desk.

Don’t feel like dinner. Maybe a glass of milk. And chocolates.

I am balding. Effectively.

Ahhhh. My back! Heeeeehhhghh.

Does everyone make weird stretching noises?

Alarm is set. Day was happy. Life is great. Good night world.
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These thoughts were just 99. That’s because the remaining 8634697 are too dirty for you innocent innocent children.